Emotions, something really hard to understand sometimes huh?

:) Oh well.

Over reacting while watching shows is kinda stupid if you think about it. Hahah goodness and I'm one of those very good examples. It's funny when you over react while some others don't, heh.

Spell random.

I'm still holding on, because You're with me.

Anyway, I finally met up with these beautiful people and I came to realise how much I missed them: Plentyfullylottyfullylots! :) Deserie, Sandra, Eunyse, Weixian, Weihan, Justin, Szemin, Pork, Jordan, Alwin, Bryane, Melissa, Crystal, Kelly and Juliana. I hope I'm not missing anyone out, because I don't want to!

Deserie, you pretty bimbo! I missed the times where I will time and time again challenge you with Sunset Rider and win Hahaha :) I missed the times you will just randomly call me Ahlian out of nowhere and pakat with Sandra to bully me.

Sandra, one of my karaoke kakia. I don't know if you still remember there was this once during sec 1's mooncake festival the whole of us went to Kbox at Parkway to sing? Haha it totally was one of the most enjoyable moments in my life :) We'll scream our heads off and jump on the seats and play with the lights! Thank you girl for being part of my life these 4 years, especially being my partner in Chinese class and laughing at laoshi.

Eunyse, my primary 4 best friend with Stephanie. You remember? :) I remember I had this collection of our photos placed nicely in seashell framed frames with you and Steph in it. It was childish lah, but I still remember being jealous over you because you were closer to her than I am to her. Oh well, the days. I've seen you grown from a little girl to the girl you are now, and it's definitely nostalgic. Don't cry, because you look prettier with a smile, ok?

Weixian, the carebear stealer. Although our time knowing one another was short, I thank you for being that cheerful boy you are now. I remember you as the boy who wouldn't want to speak more than 5 words to me a day, and that I'd count the number of words you have spoken to me for entertainment purposes. Hahaha and no thanks for the many attempts of stealing Midnight!

Weihan, brother bear. Hahah I remember you as the 'guy-who-sneeze-so-loud-until-i-jump-in-the-library'! Haha and each time you sneeze ah, the girls will start laughing lah and we'll be looking around to see who was the one. Thank you for your concern during my difficult times, and I can recognizes it :) Your ultimate laughter is something I'll never forget.

Justin, the boy who disturbs me in my sleep. I'll never forget you always trying to disturb me in my sleep at Szemin's. Of course, I will never forget you as the chemistry laoshi. Really, even though our time spent was so little, I really treasure those times where you kept disturbing me with Lucas. I'll miss you because you're someone really nice. I'm glad Szemin has you.

Szemin, my never ending supply of joy. Thank you girl for even putting me up at your place during my difficult moments and for all the joy you bring me. You never mean what you say lah, always saying that you will jump on me if I don't get up from bed :) I can never forget those moments I spent with you especially during the O's. I love you so much Szemin, thank you, really. The tears, the joy and the never ending laughter. I'll remember them all!

Pork, the cute porky pie. (I can't think of anything else but this!) I'll never forget those times I spent at your place and we sharing secrets here and all. Pork, it indeed is really nice to have you as a friend. I especially love the times where we were so honest with one another. Don't you think it's the best? Thank you for being so honest with me. I really love you for that. Stayover soon!

Jordan, the kopi kia. (Hahaha don't ask me why you are kopi kia, go ask Bryane!) Though I don't know much about you and everything, I just want to thank you for being there and all. It is really nice to have you as a friend around. You better teach me the secret to playing pool well! :)

Alwin, the angmoh beng. Techno, crazy dance, DJ Max, the 'I-want-to-look-cool-but-I-am-umchio-ing' look on your face never fails to draw me roaring at you. The bickerings and everything made it all fun. Haha you are really something topped on top of everything and just having you around makes a difference in the atmosphere. Angmoh beng ah, get a pair of contacts and you're on your way to 'I-finally-can-become-as-handsome-as-I-think-I-am'! ;)

Bryane, spider man?! Haha, you remind me greatly of someone I know of (You know who) and sometimes just by looking at you brings me back memories I don't wish to have. Still, you being who you are definitely cheered me up because Bryane is Bryane and no one else, yup? I still remember you initiating an MSN conversation when you were in Sec 1 in SJI. Goodness, this is funny the moment I think about it. Thanks BryaneSM (Hahahah!) alot for being Bryane:)

Melissa, the sotong. Melissa is someone I can never ever forget in my entire life. You have been someone special to me ever since you initiated for me to talk by writing 'Can you please talk?' on a piece of timetable given out by Tang in sec 1. Not long after, we became really good friends and played stupid games across the class. Another of my karaoke kakia :) I've watched you grown, watched you mature. You heard me and watched me cry, and so have I. You heard and watched me laugh, and so have I. Melissa will always be that Melissa whom I have known for 5 years. Thank you friend, for being that special.

Crystal, the singing dork. From KCP choir to classmates for 4 years to KC choir to Campus Superstar in sec 1 to Music Clinic. How can I forget them? :) The times that we spent in KC Choir was the most memorable one, somehow. Remember the seniors and everything? Man, I really do miss choir and at times I feel so miserable for not being able to committ to it. Haha, sounds weird huh? Still, I want to see a Strong Crystal that won't cry easily over things that are not worth crying over :) I love you Crystal, and Karaoke soon!

Kelly, my shopping and laughing partner. Watching you cry makes me feel like crying, do you know? It feels so bad to watch you cry and not do anything, and that feeling is the worst. Perhaps it's because you are just that sunshine in my life and definitely in other people's life as well. Tell me you will be strong and you will never give up okay? I miss the times where we just laugh like there was no end and not bothering about how others would see us. Those were the times. I love you Kelly. Stay strong, I'm here.

Juliana, my mime partner. I can't imagine we can do such stupid things back then, but still, they were really fun and enjoyable to watch :) I'm talking about the videos, haha and obviously you do remember them. Thank you for turning to me when you feel distressed, especially during that period of time where you felt the worst. I really feel honoured to be someone whom you can turn to. Know that my shoulder is there whenever you need them :)

And to the rest who aren't mentioned,
You are definitely not forgotten.

Angela, Nicole Tong, Sarah Lew, Amelia, Vrinda, Alicia and Secondary 4/3.

I love you all.

I guess falling in love is just part of growing up.

I'm in love.

In love with someone who first loved me.

Someone said "No greater love than this who gives his own life for a friend."

Indeed, no greater love.

I'm in love.

Scattered Christmas today at Theatrette was awesome :) Even though it was 2 days after Christmas, the joy of Christmas still hovers in the air and it was fun with all the games and all. I wrapped Jeremy's $5.05 in a piece of paper for his exchanging gift, and guess what? I got the gift back in return. My reaction was, well, you can totally imagine that.

And after that, Mei, Sarita, Daphne and I went down to Roxy to cut hair. I didn't plan to dye my hair in the first place, but after looking at a particular picture, I was so bought into the idea of doing it.

The lady was really nice, offering me a student's offer of $100 for Colouring, highlighting, Cutting and Washing. I did a brown base and violet highlights :) And she offered to add on another shade of highlights for me! Which I'm going down to do it tomorrow, yay! For free. I think Mei's hair looks good, she got persuaded to cut bangs!

Pictures soon! Gotta rip them from Avis and Dawn, heh.

Here I am once again caught in the Rain
Looking back I've come so far, and I want to carry on
Take a Step at a time, It's alright.
Ever through this rain, I want to smile again.

- Olivia Ong, Best of Olivia

I know I can do this. I know I really can. I cannot guarantee you that I've completely forgotten now, but there will defintely be the time where I can reassure you this. I've pulled back those strings. And I'll move on. Really.

Thanks to Tingxin for Olivia's CD, it was so sweet of her to lend it to me! I'm totally enjoying myself with the CD playing on the stereos. Anyway, Christmas this year is really quiet. Didn't get to play soccer with the rest :( because my mother told me not to. Okay, that's not the point. The point is I was still sleeping, Hahaha! Oops.

And I feel like listening to Oldies. For some reason.

L is for the way you look at me,
O is for the only one I see,
V is very very extraordinary,
E is even more than anyone that you adore

- Olivia Ong, A Girl Meets Bosa Nova 2

The L word is so magical that the moment I came touch to it, it quickly brought me back to that place of reminiscence. I was shakened by the very memories as reality snapped back at me. I just got to know that time is in His hands and I've just got to wait.

Singing-heroine.blogspot is back once again! Gotta hope that it'd not disappear again I guess. Anyway, I've been making nice friends like Alex, Weilun, Mirah, Jordan, Desmond and Darilyn these past few days. Really sweet.

Till then,
Ariane Deborah
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/Edit: Blessed Christmas to all out there! :)